The day I found my husband dead, was the worst experience of my life. My life is changing, my dreams were lost, destroyed, I have been in shock. I will have to leave my farm, and move on. I think I have found a wonderful place for my animals and myself though. It breaks my heart to leave my farm, I have grown to love this farm, and the upgrades my husband made. He loved it here and two of my dogs are buried in the back under a tree. My beloved Destiny is buried there, that I loved more than anything. This was to be my forever home, my dreams are lost, I have to pick up the pieces and try to move on. I pray every morning for Jesus to help me get out of bed. Then a week later I lost my step father, that I loved so much, he loved me too. I can’t sleep thinking of all of the things that were and could be.