I need to find an illustrator that can illustrate by 2nd book in the series of Ruger.
If I could turn back the clock, would I do things different? Yes, but hindsight is wasteful. I know that my music and writing are coming to me again in my dreams. I try to plan my days, my family calls, my neighbors come over and do amazing things for me. My German Shepherd will be 11 in November and that is sad, she is my best friend. If I felt like reading, writing, or playing my music again, I think I could feel better. Everybody hurts, it’s just adjusting. We are keeping the farm for now until I find a place we want to go. My Anatolian Shepherd is getting to be sweet. He is a good boy. I pray for all of you to be safe and happy.
I’m taking a little time to think what I’m doing. I feel my characters wanting to continue their stories. I’m still in disbelief of what my life is. How can you just find someone gone? No good bye, no sense of anything. The kindness of my neighbors is amazing. I could not have lived here without them. They enclosed my property so my Anatolian , Aslan will be safe. I have my beloved, German Shepherd that won’t leave my side. May God let her be with me a few more years, because she is my partner, and will be 11 in November. My parrot is my buddy too, and my horse is too. It’s consumed my days worrying about moving or refinancing. My mortgage company is going to refinance me, so I’m staying until I find a place to go.
I’m sorry I have not posted for a while. I am trying to sort my life out. I can feel it that as soon as I move and relocate stories will resume.I can do this! I know it. My vacation was canceled because of snow, a good thing. Driving over a mountain pass in snow in an RV I don’t know would be scary. I’m selling my farm and moving forward, I don’t know where yet. Acreage for a horse and two big dogs, plus an house for us. I think I will buy land and build. I love log homes, and you can’t find any nice ones in my area. So, maybe Eastern WA or Montana. Good night friends, America is still the best place to call home.
I will start blogging again, as soon as I can handle all that has been left for me to do. Just getting through a day right now, is a struggle to take care of everyone. I know things will get better, I was never told life would be easy, but never thought it could be this hard either. The kindness of friends have been amazing. I thank all of them. I’ll try to blog more. My characters in my books have unfinished stories. Good night everyone.
I will be back soon, it will take some time after the loss I have had. My dogs, parrot, and horse are taking care of me. I have friends helping and wonderful neighbors, that are friends always checking on me. It’s just so hard, because of an accident 8 years ago in a school setting, I have major arthritis in my hips. So, maybe all of the veggies and fruit don’t get picked, I take care of my horse the best I can do. I cook for my dogs and parrot. My characters are ready and have stories to be told. I’m taking my two dogs, and parrot on an RV road trip in a month, that should be fun? I hope so.
The day I found my husband dead, was the worst experience of my life. My life is changing, my dreams were lost, destroyed, I have been in shock. I will have to leave my farm, and move on. I think I have found a wonderful place for my animals and myself though. It breaks my heart to leave my farm, I have grown to love this farm, and the upgrades my husband made. He loved it here and two of my dogs are buried in the back under a tree. My beloved Destiny is buried there, that I loved more than anything. This was to be my forever home, my dreams are lost, I have to pick up the pieces and try to move on. I pray every morning for Jesus to help me get out of bed. Then a week later I lost my step father, that I loved so much, he loved me too. I can’t sleep thinking of all of the things that were and could be.
It hurts so much to lose a husband. When I can stop giving I will be back tenfold with powerful stories.